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Gone Til…

[ 14 ] May 17, 2010 |

People keep asking me about the Alicia Keys gig. I didn’t get it. I’m surprised because I did what they  asked for–be creative, show personality and all that good stuff. Actually, I was a lot more creative and stood out more than a lot of the contestants, which makes me angry that they didn’t choose me to advance to the final round but also sad because it was something I really wanted to do. [Enter all the cliche phrases you can think of like, “It’s her loss,” and “When one door closes another one opens,” here]. Story of my life.

I’m in a weird space. I don’t want to go into what that space is just yet, just know that it’s “career” related. “Urban journalism” is wack and it’s dragging my spirit down. Internet culture is wack and corrupt, especially now that corporations are involved. My childhood dreams are being crushed every day, every time I write or blog something. The result is, I’m not even inspired to write on my own blog. It’s all just gone straight to hell.

I’ve been sad and uninspired.

I’m taking a break. Actually, I’ve been taking a break which I’m sure you’ve noticed. It’s not that I’m never going to post, I just need to get away. I do have some posts submitted by other people which will go up at some point. Bear with me.

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Starrene Rhett Rocque is a recovering journalist who often fantasizes about becoming a shotgun-toting B-movie heroine.

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  1. I was actually extremely surprised that you didn’t move on. I’m still baffled because you were great. Hopefully something even better will come along. Keep your head up. Don’t let this industry damper your mood too much.

  2. 🙁 you’re still a bad maama jaama who inspires me. Trust me. Us girls see your stories and your interviews (ie. Essence, Black Enterprises) and we kno we can do anything! Please don’t ever stop.

  3. BIG D O says:

    I remember recently when you hinted at some of this before….I know it’s desperately cliche’, but I don’t think you should walk away–which is what I’m sure your contemplating….

    Look, the Alicia Keys thing woulda been great, no doubt, but they don’t know what to do with someone who’s skill set is as diverse as yours…they don’t deserve ya Gangstarr Girl, and that’s real…

    We all get knocked down and have our dreams crumpled and discarded many times over in this life, but the only constant that we have is that ability to keep getting up and fighting that good fight…

    I urge you…..keep on going….

    -BIG D O

  4. NWSO says:

    Boo…. hiss… “Her loss.” Besides, she’s sleeps with married men, go work for Mashonda. 🙂

    On to the next one….

  5. Justine says:

    Awww :/ It hurts to hear about someone having their dreams crushed. I’ve been feeling that way lately myself.

    I always try to keep in mind what I do have though, and remember that at least if I try and fail, than that’s better than never trying at all.

    My <3 goes out to you right now, and I'll be ready when you are for more of your awesome work 🙂

  6. Sindanu says:

    DON’T GIVE UP !!!

  7. Plot says:

    my comment didnt get thru? maybe this one does.. :/ ::sigh:: birds of a feather

  8. MJC says:

    Illegitimi non carborundum

  9. STAYMATIC says:

    To quote certain married men… FUCK ALICIA KEYS!!!

    Hopefully that got a smile if not creativity points…

  10. TuttiFrutti says:

    Please don’t allow one more set back to discourage you from pursuing your childhood dream! Your grandmother Vergie and all the women that preceded her would be disappointed. Your chosen field is indeed a tough one to succeed in, but you were born to shine…remember, in whatever you do. You were not given your unique name for no reason; your name signifys something special…all those r’s and double letters…got to mean something special…keep your head up!

  11. Samantha G. says:

    Just wanted to say that I love your site and how original it is. I’ve been lurking for about a year and your blog always does the job of keeping me interested. You changed the layout and I think that it has done wonders for the site though your material was already interesting before it. As a blogger and freelance writer, I can relate to when you say that this blogging and writing ish can bring a sister down. When you feel you are putting your all into something and the results are just eh, it can really be stab at the self-esteem. But you’ve accomplished so much thus far and you are an inspiration to some of the newcomers like myself who are looking to etch our names in this intense pie of blogging. With that said, maybe a break is something that is needed so that you can gather your thoughts and come back stronger and better. Sometimes we need to take a step back and take a look at all we have accomplished to plan out our next moves so that we can accomplish more. I believe everyone has their moment of reflection and I know that you’ve got something that others can’t duplicate. Good luck Starrene, look forward to your return and your posts!

  12. HipHopObama says:

    Whatup Starr, Im sure ur frustrated about how things are goin (most of us are in regard to our careers) but you’ve done this dope site and I’m positive that I’m not the only1 that wants it to continue. *tosses 2 cents*

  13. Miss Jane says:

    I agree with Ms. Tutti! Girl, don’t let one or two setbacks “crush your dreams.” YOU have to realize within yourself that those setbacks do not determine what God has for you!

    Please please please take these things as stepping stones and do what’s best for you in your heart. God does not give us dreams and aspirations for them not to succeed. They are usually our calling. There’s nothing that can trump that.

    Alicia Keys is NOT the only venue of success for you. Neither is so called “urban media.” Evaluate your choices and then move FORWARD. Don’t let the enemy keep you in a funk because opportunities are gonna pass you by that way.

    You’re excellent and you WILL see your dreams come true. But only YOU are in control of how you handle these setbacks… don’t doom yourself before the light can find you!

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